and it just doesn't work out the way i wanted to. and i get real frustrated and like i try hard to do it. i like take my time and it just doesn't work out the way i wanted to. it's like i concentrate on it real hard and it just doesn't work out
and everything i do and everything i try it never turns out. it's like i need time to figure these things out. there's always someone there going
hey buddy. you know
we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately. you know
you need to maybe get away and like maybe you should talk about it
you'll feel a lot better
i go. no it's okay
you know i'll figure it out
just leave me alone i'll figure it out. you know i'll just work it out myself. and they go. well you know if you want to talk about it i'll be here you know and you'll
probably feel a lot better if you talk about it
so why don't you talk about it?
i go. no. i don't want to talk about it. i'm okay
i'll figure it out myself but they just keep
bugging me and they just keep bugging me and it builds up inside. so you're gonna be institutionalized
you'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
you won't have anything to say
they'll brainwash you until you see their way. i'm not crazy
you're the one who's crazy
you're driving me crazy
they stuck me in an institution
said it was the only solution
to give me the needed professional help
to protect me from the enemy
myself
i was in my room and i was like just sitting there staring at the wall thinking about
everything but then again i was thinking about nothing
and my mom came in and i didn't even realize she was there and she calls my
name but i didn't even hear it
and she started screaming buddy! buddy!
and i go. what
what's the matter?
and she goes. what's the matter with you?
i go. there's nothing-wrong mom. and she goes. don't tell me that
you're on drugs!
i go. mom i'm not on drugs i'm okay
i was just thinking you know
why don't
you get me a pepsi?
and she goes. no you're on drugs!
i go. mom i'm okay
i'm just thinking. she goes. no you're not thinking
you're on drugs! normal people don't act that way!
i go. mom just give me a pepsi please
all i want is a pepsi
and she wouldn't give it to me
all i wanted was a pepsi
just one pepsi
and she wouldn't give it to me. just a pepsi. they give you a white shirt with long sleeves
tied around you're back
you're treated like thieves
drug you up because they're lazy
it's too much work to help a crazy
i'm not crazy
you're the one who's crazy
you're driving me crazy
they stuck me in an institution
said it was the only solution
to give me the needed professional help
to protect me from the enemy
myself
i was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up
a chair and they sat down and they go. buddy
we need to talk to you
and i go. okay what's the matter?
they go. me and your mom we've been noticing lately that you've been having a lot of
problems
you've been going off for no reason and we're afraid you're gonna
hurt somebody
we're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself. so we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere
where you could get the help that you need. and i go. wait
what are you talking about
we decided!? my best
interest?! how do you know what my best interest is? how can you say what
my best interest is? what are you trying to say
i'm crazy? when i went to
your schools
when i went to your churches
when i went to your institutional learning
facilities?! how can you say i'm crazy?
they say they're gonna fix my brain
alleviate my suffering and my pain
but by the time they fix my head
mentally i'll be dead
i'm not crazy
you're the one who's crazy
you're driving me crazy
they stuck me in an institution
said it was the only solution
to give me the needed professional help
to protect me from the enemy
myself
it doesn't matter. i'll probably get hit by a car anyway.