it's a bitch to grow up

it's been 10 years of investment

it's been one foot in and one out

it's been 4 days of full of shit

and i feel snuffed out

it's been 33 years of restraining

of trying to control this tumult

how i did invest in such fantasy

but my nervous system has worn out

i feel done

i feel raked over coals

and all that remains is the case

that it's a bitch to grow up

i've repeated this dance ad-nauseum

there's still something to learn that i've not

i'm told to see this as divine perfection

but my bones don't feel this perfection

i feel done

i feel raked over coals

and all that remains is the case

that it's a bitch to grow up

i've spent life hovering above bottom

thinking i can't survive what's below

but i've known through the kicking and screaming

that there was no other direction to go

i feel done

i feel raked over coals

and all that remains is the case

that it's a bitch to grow up