joining you

dear dar your mom left a message on my machine she was frantic

saying you were talking crazy that you wanted to do away with yourself

i guess she thought i'd be a perfect resort because we've had

this inexplicable connection since our youth and yes they're in shock

they are panicked you and your chronic them and their drama

you this embarrassment us in the middle of this delusion

if we were our bodies

if we were our futures

if we were our defenses i'd be joining you

if we were our culture

if we were our leaders

if we were our denials i'd be joining you

i remember vividly a day years ago we were camping you knew more than you thought you should know

you said i don't want ever to be brainwashed" and you were mindboggling you were intense