just us (a reprise for robert who will never be forgotten)

i swear to goodness i have no fear of failure

a&e will always hold my place as a commercial wailer

every mistake i've ever made has had an inexplicable beauty

you overachievers could never replace

i'm not sorry that i failed you

and i'll unabashedly crawl back under the rock that i hail to

i waste a lot of time perusing wikipedia entries

locating algorithms that'll make me famous like fonzworth bentley

i don't want to wear technicolor bowties

and i'm sure you could surmise

i'm not the type to ghost ride

i was the kid memorizing danger mouse in my tree house

a mansion is a place with plenty of couch space for all my friends

real brothers don't care if you're an hour late to make amends

but nonetheless i am an hour late

under a fig tree meditating on schopenhauer's face

ashy handed bandit bandwagon of one

what have i done

what have i done

this sadness is too real

i keep contorting my jawline like blue steel

remember after class stealing muffins and it was nothing

we would laugh

my god

my god robbed rob of his life force

replaying the entire scene from my high horse

passing blue bottles of polo sport before our night course

remember trips to big star in the back of martin's beamer

remember cigarillo burns and earnest eyed dreamers

remember kenosha public school politics

remember rob telling me to never apologize for shit

remember learning to let our freak flag fly

we'd curse the sky

and say we'd never die and then you died

and i blame myself

and i blamed everybody that you'd ever met

then channeled that into shitty rap songs for the internet

then i smoked a corn cob pipe for a couple months

and felt my inner light grow dull like it never was

now kids write me about being their favorite rapper

and i'm the asshole who gets to live forever after

you don't want me to pull memories from way back cause you ain't got the necessary gigawatts in that maybach

you don't want me to pull memories from way back cause you ain't got the necessary gigawatts in that maybach

then i got these tattoos to prove that i too could last forever

then i got these tattoos to prove that i too could last forever

then i got these tattoos to prove that i too could last forever

then i got these tattoos to prove that i too could last forever

i miss you

the english language dictates we speak of you in past tense

can you cross the river styx with only a mere half pence?

i don't know the answers

i just know the dances

when your facebook becomes your memorial page

and i swear to god i cry when i look through the pictorial display