lavender bones

sick of having empty habits

leading to the selfish havoc

i'm lonely in my own bones

you're unweaving where you stand

stitch me into all your plans

just like a cherry stone

temporary fleeting thrills

keep me bruised and make me ill

my skin has lavender tones

tell me i'm a loaded gun

tie me up and come undone

i can cover it up

i can cover it up

i can cover it up

i know i'm out of my depth

but i just float in it

i try to do my best

stop picking fights with it

i wanna be upset

you're not alright with it

i can cover it up

i can cover it

try to speak my mind

wish it was by design

but i can only confess to having doubts with it

don't wanna feel regret

i'm not alright with it

i can cover it up

i can cover it

spending time with or without you

cutting corners just to get

you out of my got damn mind

keep your words up where they're brewing

i want something worth pursuing

still letting you curl my spine

temporary fleeting thrills

keep me bruised and make me ill

my lonely lavender bones

tell me how to hurt for fun

tie me up and come undone

i can cover it up

i can cover it

i know i'm out of my depth

but i just float in it

i try to do my best

stop picking fights with it

i wanna be upset

you're not alright with it

i can cover it up

i can cover it

try to speak my mind

wish it was by design

but i can only confess to having doubts with it

don't wanna feel regret

i'm not alright with it

i can cover it up

i can cover it

what have i done? chewing on my words

nothing's enough

i rinse myself in the dirt

sold all my time to a plastic ecstasy

nothing's enough

i know i'm out of my depth

but i just float in it

i try to do my best

stop picking fights with it

i wanna be upset

you're not alright with it

i can cover it up

i can cover it

try to speak my mind

wish it was by design

but i can only confess to having doubts with it

don't wanna feel regret

i'm not alright with it

i can cover it up

i can cover it

what have i done?

nothing's enough