i hate myself

Singer: lil b

don't want the world to see me

don't think that they'd understand

everything's meant to be broken

want you to know who i am

i see myself in the mirror

but i don't see nothing

if you understand what i'm seeing please tell me something

when you black

the media make you wonder why

i need to learn. my lifetime came from struggle

all i've seen is what i follow

my skin color

automatic transaction

i'm already classified

no second chance

taught to feel nappy hands

little grade

why can't i sag when it's just a style

grown beard

black hoodie

and i'm all good

people judge before they even know me

stare at me

don't know i'm lonely

outside's front these stares from police

and i get the bad rap because another man that just looks like me

think life's a movie like spike lee

too cool like ice t

yeah

i move with life's peace

and he move with the gun piece

so there's no peace

i gotta go to the hood

all i see is

divided

the freshest schizophrenics

men pimping women

people losing vision

given choices before she started living

i hate myself

i see myself in the mirror

but i don't see nothing

if you understand what i'm seeing please tell me something

when you black

the media make you wonder why

i just need my history

because i hate myself

it makes me sad to see pimping like i'm at a battle with my surroundings

everybody do it

but not really

and i couldn't imagine my momma

universal knowledge is karma

i see young girls hanging off the corner

and they searching for love in the wrong space

gave her mind to a pimp

now he's changing faces

sometimes i just wish i could trade places

i hate myself for being taught the roots of the hood

which don't matter

no respect and no love

that got jailed for the real thugs

and i'm sorry to all the innocent in prison

you get a second chance when you free or in heaven

i promise if you really love and you watch your steps

respect everybody

man you will get blessed

get your point across without violence

the black dying by the gun

i'm tired of crying

i hate myself

for real man

this been in my heart for a long time

and if you understand

please tell me something

when you black

the media make you wonder why

i'm ready to give up my old thoughts

i'ma move past what i saw

i'ma do what i want and be happy

i'm not gon' rob or kill to survive

everything i've seen was a lie

i'm not ready to die

i love myself

i said. everything that i've seen was a lie

i'm not ready to die

i love myself

break that mental

you know we are free now man

break that

uh

mental blockage

don't think too hard

free your mind

that's real life man

i just. you know speak for real

shit

that really feel real shit

man you know

we all human

we all got questions

you know

i'm designed this way and i got questions

it's all love over here

you feel me?

like i said man

just livin'

yeah

but then i hear me tho'

i said i'm ready to give up my old thoughts

i'ma move past what i saw

i'ma do what i want to be happy

i'm not gon' rob or kill to survive

everything i've seen was a lie

i'm not ready to die

i love myself

but i don't see nothin'

if you hear what i'm sayin' please tell me somethin'

when you-

the media make you wonder why

i need to learn my history

because i hate myself

Lyric Context: i hate myself - lil b