m.e.n iii

yo

it's bugzy malone

ayy

you see

as soon as i got to the hospital

the nurses told me i'm lucky to be alive

3 weeks later

i get a blood clot in my chest

the shit nearly killed me

and now i'm back

they don't call me the king of the north for nothing

watch this

alright

so mummy used to sell herself

drop couple rocks into a pipe and light it up

think i didn't come from hell?

my old bestie said my head's gone

it must be mental health

but i've got killers in my family

in case you couldn't tell

and i didn't wanna see them niggas so i got it hella stealth

and when i saw those idiots i told them by myself that i don't fear nobody

i still got opps that want me bodied

but them man are still living in a cell

and if i have to go back there

i swear i'm going in

i pray a lot these days in case i have to sin

i tell 'em 'till my mouth goes dry and i need a drink

i sleep well these days

i never miss a wink

and no i didn't catch the virus

though there's pain in my chest

a court case's coming

fuck fame for a sec

i'm gonna have to stand and take judgement again

but i can look him in his eye

i have my baby to protect

couple things i've never said out loud

i just been living with it

i've gotta speak out

though it's fucking with my spirit

a school tie around my neck and hanging from the ceiling

he burst into the room

i was embarrassed when he see me

so i put it to my wrist and yeah

i slit it

didn't cut it deep though

i gotta say i shit it

and mummy was a nitty

but when i heard she turned one of her customers into my dad i gotta say i really nearly did it

but i told myself

i would never do anything silly

i told myself i would take it out on niggas that fuck with me

and that's why i never lost

and that's why i am a boss

and that's why i was the first one to rep my city

i got fake friends talking like i don't show intelligence

like i didn't demonstrate due diligence?

man telling me about my residence

like i couldn't give a green lie and leave no evidence

ah

place in the louis

waves under the doowie

skeleton cartier so i can see through it

see

there is levels to this british shit and me i'm top tier

any talk of me not being a legend stops here

when the car pulled out

i knew that we was crashing

and at that point my life was meant to start flashing

i just blacked out

woke up on the concrete with feathers everywhere - the moncler was ragged down

me

i had it mapped out

now i got the bleeding on the brain

the same shit that killed my cousin

yeah

i swear i miss dane

couple niggas turned out to be fake

but i'm too rich to argue these days

so i just give it space

on the hospital bed

the morphine had me trippin'

gigglin' at nothing

into reminiscin'

crashed doin' 70 without wearing a helmet

believe in god or not

there's no denying a blessing

i was on the wards

slowly healing

layin' on the bed and my chest was beating

the blood clot passed through my heart and into my lungs

and the pain was a deeper feeling

i shouted for the nurse

i could feel myself leaking with a face full of sweat

could barely catch my breath

even though i knew i was hanging by a thread

i told the nurse that there is no way i'm dying on this bed

fuck that!

now i'm supposed to feel weak?

for some reason though i feel like a wolverine

like i smashed the side of the car up with my physique

and left a big boy dent in the concrete

they put me in the newspapers and magazines

you better recognise a legend when you catch a sneak peak

it's not the first time i shed blood out on the street

but the way they taped it off

it was like a murder scene

ah

fucking bugzy malone

2020

the fucking resurrection

yeah

ah