mal

foreign forest

you hear me talk

but you don't talk back

under my skin like 'where the rock at? '

get out my head piece

can i be dead please?

without your presence i got no meaning

when all this ended i couldn't see it

but now you're gone and i'm fucking bleeding

if i can't love you then kill me now

cut me like a ribbon let me fucking drown

no you then there's no where i wanna go

no you then there's no one i wanna show

if i can't love you than kill me now

cut me like a ribbon let me fucking drown

no you then there's no where i wanna go

mental dissembling

fuck the feelings i'm gone til december

spring

still i run to the door when the doorbell ring

then i go hit the store for a pack of green

oh stop

smoke the thc

exhale the bullshit when i'm watching the vapor

enabling myself to heal in the time

immune to nothing it seems but it's fine

never been able to draw in the lines

so i'm swerving the lanes like its mine

closer to you every second

i'm closer to you every second

you dead and i cannot get past

hopefully see you the second i crash

if i can't love her then kill me now

cut me like a ribbon let me fucking drown

no her then there's no where i wanna go

without her there's no where i wanna go

if i can't love her than kill me now

cut me like a ribbon let me fucking drown

no her then there's no where i wanna go

no

struggling to find my purpose

now kinda feel like i'm worthless

putting all this shit in my body

got antibodies trying to prolong my heartbeat

no stopping this train to destruction

they do not see in my mind

working my shift trying to act like its fine

then i get off and damn i be left with this time

god damn

i'm in a vicious cycle

might go to bed but i'm sure i won't sleep

still got that shirt where you cried on my sleeve

last year i would not believe that this would happen to me

no no

knife to my throat

i need to know though

take away and then i go and then i overdose though

hope you get that i'm serious

give her back to me period

so i can stop being delirious

so i can live my life without hating fucking everything