minus something

there's been a lot of upsetting

very upsetting things that i can't allow to happen any more. i have to be like a soldier and march away. 'cause i'm very delicate in a lot of ways

and things get to me

and affect me in a very adverse. manner. i don't need that; don't need that. i feel now like minus something

you know

i feel faded; i don't feel like i'm all here. i think it'll come back; i hope it'll come back. there's a lot of color missing

from the way i feel

and from. my face

and

you know

just everything. there's some kind of zest

or some kind of

um. life

you know

that seems to be faded temporarily

because i've been so drained

emotionally

by a number of things. that has to slowly build back up

and then it has to be kept sustained; it cannot be allowed to be diminished.