moment of surrender

i tied myself with wire

to let the horses run free

playing with the fire until the fire played with me

the stone was semi-precious

we were barely conscious

two souls too smart to be in the realm of certainty

even on our wedding day

we set ourselves on fire

oh god

do not deny her

it's not if i believe in love

but if love believes in me

oh

believe in me

at the moment of surrender

i folded to my knees

i did not notice the passers-by

and they did not notice me

i've been in every black hole

at the altar of the dark star

my body's now a begging bowl

that's begging to get back

begging to get back

to my heart

to the rhythm of my soul

to the rhythm of my unconsciousness

to the rhythm that yearns

to be released from control

i was punching in the numbers

at the atm machine

i could see in the reflection

a face staring back at me

at the moment of surrender

of vision over visibility

i did not notice the passers-by

and they did not notice me

i was speeding on the subway

through the stations of the cross

every eye looking every other way

counting down till the pain would stop

at the moment of surrender

of vision over visibility

i did not notice the passers-by

and they did not notice me