must try harder

mother loves me still despite

my failing health and lack of drive. shame on me

i could be so much better than i am. songs unfinished

post unopened

clothes unwashed and vows now broken. shame on me

i could be so much better than i am. if i could just relax

then i could admit

that i don't know what i want

but this is not it. if i could just recall the dreams i had as a kid

if i could just relax

if i could let my guard slip

i'd be such a winner.