my grandma's basement

my grandmas basement

felt like there was no escaping

some days felt suicidal

i was scared i would never make it

i got problems nigga

i got issues bitch

i don't want to live no more

im'ma let this pistol spit

give me a therapist

that know magic tricks

prescribe me something

nigga change my life

i need happiness

sunshine

darkness that's all i see

i drank away my pain and popped a few pills

i can't wait to fall

asleep

damn i think death is calling me

wake up and i'm still here

like fuck i'm too scared to die

these pills and this vodka making me feel weird

i don't hang around like i used to

paranoid that im'a lose her

i'm scared of what my bitch think

i know any day i might lose her

too unstable to raise a kid

what the fuck holy shit!

i just came to this realization

its been nine months i just noticed it

this must be a nightmare

pinch myself

somebody awake him

i open my eyes and i wake

and i'm still right here in my grandmas basement

noooo!

my gran'ma basement

yeah nigga my gran'ma basement

my gran'ma basement

yeah nigga my gran'ma basement

some days i felt so scared i wouldn't make it

some days i felt so scared i wouldn't make it

yeah outta' my gran'ma basement

yeah nigga my gran'ma basement

at night i can't go to sleep

i feel like someone's stabbing me

inside of my fucking heart

just like clock work this pain grows gradually

actually i still have a little bit of hope

maneuvering the anguish and shit i wrote

i ain't got patience the way i'm dope

give a nigga one shot they like

no!

now its back to my grandmas basement

with all this anger and this frustration

stress can't be complacent

there he go again getting wasted

pacing around his room so anxious

wish i had a space ship

'bout to go ape-shit

how much more can a nigga like me take it

before a mother fucker go and cave in ahhh!

fuck this rap shit

it ain't happening quick enough

my homies say i shouldn't give it up

but honestly i don't give a fuck

my girl bitching 'bout cash nigga

i'm strapped down to my last nigga

my baby hungry and need new clothes

and i swear they grow so fast nigga

these nine to fives don't pay enough

i'm about to hit the bank and go spray it up

i've got to get the fuck out this basement

these dreams and hopes ain't waiting up

this must be a nightmare

pinch myself

somebody awake him

i open my eyes and i wake

and i'm still right here in my grandmas basement

noooo!

i'm on the edge

fucked up in the head

i don't know who i am no mo'

i lost faith in religion

god please give me just one anticdote

i plan to blow

but i panic so much these days i can't see straight

we can't relate

cause i'm losing it and out of my rocker

don't know what to do with it

this music ain't lucrative

papa keep talkin that go back to school

bitch you sounding so ludicrous

stuck on that stupid shit

i should be thankful while laying in the basement

instead of the pavement

my brain is just aching

my city they sleeping

they hating

but fuck 'em i eat 'em

i'm packing my shit up this evening

i can't turn back

fuck that

shit

damn it i'm leaving

got to get out of here find my way

my sanity's slipping

im'ma go crazy

got to make moves

what's it goin' take me

i'm stuck on my own

no one saves me

so what you gonna do when there's no where to go

and the world seems cold

and the pain keep aching

you finally made it

it's your worst nightmare when you lose

and you got to go back to the basement

noooo!