all along i was scared to breathe
so afraid that the world was gonna leave me behind
in the dark i refused to see
it's such a bitter pill to swallow
but i learned to call it reality
i didn't wanna wake up and miss the misery
all along i refused to believe
paranoid that my fear already left me to die
in the end when i stopped i could see
that i was feeding the lie
caught in between another time and place
when no one cared to know my name
feels like it's never enough
i build it up just to tear it back down again
fighting fate only to surrender
i'm the worst at letting go
to the scars i loved the most
running from the worst in me
it's such a bitter pill to swallow
but i learned to call it reality
it's such a bitter pill to swallow
but i learned to call it reality
i didn't wanna wake up and miss the misery
i hold the key to escaping my reality
i hold the key to creating my identity
i build it up just to tear it back down again
fighting fate only to surrender
i'm the worst at letting go
to the scars i loved the most
running from the worst in me
left me broke and wondering