nervous & weird

you know i want to be the way you want me to

big hearted and tall enough to cover you

i would break in half if you said it loud

splinter out of myself just like mercury

i think it's better now than how it used to be

you were lying in bed and i would levitate

i think it's better here than where we used to be

i wish i could go out into the oregon sun: to be alive in the day

i'd smile at everyone

i remember you back in '83

you were dressing insane

you were my everything

you were so different from all those other girls

a blind electra in drag

so cool and casually lame

i think i'm better now than how i used to be

always nervous and weird

scared most of the time

i think it's better now than how it used to be

always up in the night

afraid to live in the day

afraid of being afraid

now i sit alone when you're not around

i read aloud just to hear a friendly voice

i see you scary dolls

they all look at me

from the corner of my eye i see them shake their heads

you know i want to be the way you me to

big hearted and tall enough to cover you

i wish i could go out just to be alive in the day