now that i'm at the top of my game (alternate)

there was a time where i'd unravel and drown in the snow

there was a time when getting murdered would feel like a joke

but i'm alive

don't let me die

now that i'm at the top of my game

there was a time where i'd apologize when i should have been saying thank you

times where i'd be filled with shame over things that everybody goes through

but now i'm free

i like being me

now that i'm at the top

now that i'm at the top

now that i'm at the top of my game

i get stronger with every punch and every kick

and every rock that hits my back

and every time that i get sick

oh

i get stronger too

there's still times where i feel sad as hell

and there are times i downright scare myself

times where the rage inside me swells into a big

black tidal wave

and i feel like an idiot

when i know i can deal with it

now that i'm at the top

now that i'm at the top

now that i'm at the top of my game