outbound

may i be allowed to voice my opinion to you

today i feel like i made a choice

and now there's no turning back

isn't it great when you're a failure in life

and all that you've aimed for's gone away from your sights

whilst your top eight mates are plain sailing through life

it's grey when you're bright but unable to quite

make it through the day without evading the strife

i stay awake through the nights

lay in wait for the light

brain vacant despite the debates in my mind

like maybe my plane may have strayed from its flight

failed to pervade and faded from the sky

dan bull's a candle with no flame to ignite

it's painful to write

i strain just to type

a page full of lines and i've drained all my pride

eyes dry

i'm unable to cry

time flies and i trail behind

you may say it's my fault

maybe you're right

maybe it's myself to blame for my plight

i overdose and close my eyes

'til i'm comatose and slowly rise

over rows of roads and signs

flows

tides froze in time

from lows to highs until there's only skies

no lonely lives cloaked in phony lies

no disguise

the skies are open wide

it goes as no surprise

no surprises

no alarms

no-one cries

i'm going calmly

i'm dazed

i seem to spend my days in a daydream

i've been this way way before the day i was eighteen

haters say to me i waste the space to breathe

wait for the train to leeds with my claims in my case and leave

please

believe me

i'd say i agree

let them eat cake? i'll take it and eat it

jeez

even taking a beating's a great deal easier

than waking up each day in a place full of fears

and praying for amnesia with a faceful of tears

the pain's so severe that it aches and it sears

peel away the veneer

the real state's revealed

i've been patient for years

just waiting to hear

someone say that it's ok

that i'm safe cos they're here

but it's blatantly clear that that day's nowhere near

i hate to tempt fate but i'd be grateful for either

the faith of a believer or to fade away and disappear

i overdose and close my eyes

'til i'm comatose and slowly rise

over rows of roads and signs

flows

tides froze in time

from lows to highs until there's only skies

no lonely lives cloaked in phony lies

no disguise

the skies are open wide

it goes as no surprise

no surprises

no alarms

no-one cries

i'm going calmly

so i'm closing my curtains and making my bed

cos no-one on earth knows the pain in my head

no-one knows of the hurt or the strain or the dread

though i'm over the worst i can't face things ahead

i'm escaping instead

i'm leaving this place

erasing my thread and i'm cleaning my slate

safe now i've fled

serene and sedate

there's no waking the dead when they beam into space

i've seen into space

shaken hands with the stars

and the feeling's great when you're landing on mars

dreamy and weightless in ambient dark

only hearing the sweetness of transient harps

with my hand on my heart i assure you it's bliss

soaring back to the starkness before you existed

before you were born

before you were kissed

before you were torn from the immortal abyss

i overdose and close my eyes

'til i'm comatose and slowly rise

over rows of roads and signs

flows

tides froze in time

from lows to highs until there's only skies

no lonely lives cloaked in phony lies

no disguise

the skies are open wide

it goes as no surprise

no surprises

no alarms

no-one cries

i'm going calmly

i'm at the last act

no now amount of dark can harm me