paratrooper's battlecry

feels like i'm cursed when the drugs don't work

so i bought a statue of jesus

and listen to abby's old high school demos

and smoked a bag of reefer

i got bills coming up

debts still due

and i've got too much on my mind

to stay in the moment

it's always blowing out the windows and into the night

stay behind me

my one sweet loraine

stay in the shadow of the tower that fell

build me a castle

maria

i'd pray

take these weeds outta my head

when i'm barely living and almost dead

yeah

yeah

yeah

almost dead

i'm sick of getting lifted

sick of going under

tired of giving too much

i've been down in a hole for so long

i don't know if any love could fill it back up

i gotta move on and learn the times to be brave

can't live in them old mistakes

and i remember what tk said: you can't scare no boat by looking back at the wake"