path to isolation

it starts

with the unexpected loss of something dear

the warmth

that comforted and cradled just disappears

and in its place

there's nothing

just an endless empty hole

the light that showed the way is gone

and darkness takes control

bitterness and anger are quick to fill the void

the path to isolation is littered with the dreams that lay destroyed

the cold

seems to grow in my soul

it's consuming me

confused

and i'm losing myself in a storm

growing jaded

being pushed

being pulled

i'm unraveling

can't find myself when i'm constantly forced to conform

enemies surround me

but the worst appear as friends

liars and pretenders

only seek to reach their ends

everything is breaking

right before my eyes

looking in the mirror

i see someone that i don't recognize

the joy

that my heart used to know is eluding me

removed

and the one thing i feel is alone

smiles faded

and i'm spinning and sinking and weakening

frozen and stuck

too lonely

it chills to the bone

memories escaping as my heart begins to drain

scars that cover wounds can't hide the self-inflicted pain

everything my mind wants in conflict with my heart

fighting back surrender

but every day i'm falling more apart

mirror

what's this thing i see?

who is staring back at me?

this stranger to my heart that's filled my life

mirror help me

who am i?