pendulum days

seems i've been swinging back and forth

or running in one place

suspended to remain on course

while earth turns beneath my feet

still doing as i was told

went slow and steady

now the trail's gone cold

wait

stick to the plan

don't get discouraged

the weight will shift again

the carrot hangs

a little further out each day

with every single step i take

so hard to notice

what has changed

dominoes lined up

with too much space between

one falls

but the rest stay standing

no chain reaction

they don't connect

is this the way it's always been?

i'm too far gone to see

no i am not killing time

time is killing me

still doing as i was told

went slow and steady

now the trail's gone cold

wait

stick to the plan

don't get discouraged

the weight will shift again

the illusion of progress is all i see

inching forward with my fingernail length

and yet i find myself stuck at the beginning

chasing my own tail again

the light at the end of the tunnel barely grows

how long is too long?

can i move on?

don't make the same mistake as me

i can't move on

it's been too long