power outage

i'm living free

but what's that?

i wanna be happy

i guess

i wanna be more than i am

you know

content with my vision

less existing

more living

try to be kind and forgiving

stare at a page and paint this paper with pain

i promise it's purified

niggas full of bullshit putrefied let it

tryna jump off of the porch now they petrified

i've contemplated suicide a million and one times

but every time i tried the only thing that i could seem to see

was my momma's eyes

deep down inside is where this misery resides

to say i'm fine would be a lie

but through these lines i come alive

i'm sending praises from the gods

buddha jesus and allah

the odds are stacked against me spark mckenzie grab the key and start the engine

i'm revvin' it up until it runs right

run through red lights and stop signs

done a lot in this lifetime

but i hope the next is better than this

this some repetitive shit

we in this matrix with a glitch

this shit a dead end ditch

the truth hurts when it cuts through and infects you

i'm stitchin' up these wounds with a needle dipped in divinity

sex

drugs and rock n roll

the holy trinity

i hope you never mimic me

or live vicariously through my imagery

no complaints but i got questions and they still unanswered

this shit is hard

what's the reason we down here for?

is it really green pastures on the other side of that wall?

if you created peace and love

then why would you make war?

and if you made me in your image

why i feel piss poor?

unable to articulate all of the strain on my heart

deficiencies inside my mind

it's like i'm fallin' apart

be careful what you ask for

you just might get that shit

and feel as empty as you ever felt

just a shell of yourself

hallow be the name that i proclaim and exclaim from the highest peak of jerusalem

prophesied and then invented it

the birth of a king that's more than a mere human being

it's soothing

the essence of frankincense and myrrh and silver my nigga

mercy

mercy me lawd

and tell me why you cut my mic off

turn the lights on

pressure squeeze like a python

once the fight's on

clock tickin' like a time bomb

threw my mind off

can't say i lost it

i been gone

been a bit off

waitin' for this reality to dissolve

but in the process

try to be patient

prayin' the pain resolves

this is life as i see it

from my seat at the coliseum

fishbowl livin' fightin' for position

prayin' that i get a piece or gain knowledge

hard to survive when every single dime is trickle down economics

gotta get rid of all that shit like a fuckin' colonic

laid up with a free spirit that mommy nicknamed

tsunami roll it kamikaze watchin' toonami

hit the blunt and poonani

nine times out of ten

i demolished it

diggin' deep in the hole til i strike gold

my heart cold

but clarity comes right after i nut

then i gotta go

hit the lights maestro

the magic's over

spell is broken

tell a friend

tell a friend to tune in

this revolution will be televised and monetized

incentivized by vicious times and double knotted mob ties like lucky luciano

fuck a humble abode i want a mansion with two grottos

if i find the strength to make it to tomorrow

why you cut my mic off

turn the lights on

pressure squeeze like a python

once the fights on

clock tickin' like a time bomb

threw my mind off

can't say i lost it

i been gone

been a bit off

waitin' for this reality to dissolve

but in the process

try to be patient

prayin' the pain resolves