raining in kyoto

raining in kyoto

it's flooding the streets

i'm nursing a coffee from a vending machine

i saw the god of rice and a fox with a key

key

i woke up blind with a headache

grinding my teeth

confused and alone

been taking pills to sleep

they soften your absence but they don't let me dream

dream

raining in kyoto. my breath turns into steam

i bought you a candle

not even sure what it means

but i cursed at the matches

and drown in my grief

grief

an older man stood close by and smiled at me

i rung the bell like he did

i told you i'm sorry

a makeshift funeral. i tried setting you free

you're half asleep

and i bought you a radio to drown out the machines

hospital light

you asked about the weather

wished that they'd let you outside

raining in kyoto. i'm starting to shake

they'll hold your service tomorrow. i'm an ocean away

reached into my pocket

found a small paper crane

it's been over a year now. april turns into may

i've barely stopped moving

i've been so fucking afraid

too much of a coward to even visit your grave

you're half awake

and i bought you a radio to play the blues away

with my hand to hold

you asked about the weather

wish they'd let you die at home

you're half awake

and i bought you a radio to play the blues away

hospital light

you asked about the weather

wished that they'd let you outside

goodnight

goodnight

goodbye