razorblade salvation

i know all the times were hard

i know that you've been feeling down

if you only knew how i'm feeling for you

if i could take your pain

i wish that i could wash it all away

if you only knew how i'm feeling

mommy

i'm sorry if my first letter made you cry

to be honest with you

i don't think that i want to die

sometimes i feel like that i'm cancerous in other's lives

that's probably why i drink at night and sleep 'til four or five

it's kind of hard walkin' through life with my distorted eyes

when i was younger

i was stupid and i thought i'd thrive

i thought a lot about everything i said in the letter

and questioned whether or not if i was dead

you'd be better

you think my shorty would be happy if i never met her?

it's too late now

mommy

i could never forget her

could never forget how she taught me to love

'cause my father and my grandmother is always above

it's glory above

you know that daddy taught me to thug

and every time we was with nanny she'd bombard me with hugs

damn

i miss her

mommy

and it's hard to believe

that i'm grown and i don't understand it

why did they leave?

it's better to die and sleep

then never wake and sleep

then linger on and dare to live

when the soul's life is gone

you've been running around for so long

you've been hurting yourself too much

you keep messing around with darkness

you're the one who's losing

you've been running around for so long

you've been hurting yourself too much

you keep messing around with darkness

you're the one who's losing

mommy

i think that i'ma try to stick around a while

i got a niece

and my nephews

they need me 'round a while

i think they need me 'cause they hittin' that age

and they ain't tryin' to speak to lenny 'cause they spittin' they rage

yeah

and mommy

speakin' to lenny

i think my brother need me

and we italian

so you know my mother love to feed me

and it's the little things you do for me that make it worth it

like when i play a joint that we did and you say it's perfect

and when jake got knocked

you knew that i was hurt

you told me put all of my heart in the song

and it worked

i promised him that i'd be there when he got out the bing

you ain't raise me to be a liar

ma

that's not my thing

i told him that i'd hold him down the whole time that he gone

they kept him locked inside a cage

but that's cool

'cause he's strong

so mommy

keep that first letter i wrote you on the low

i think i wanna stay alive and see if i can grow

you've been running around for so long

you've been hurting yourself too much

you keep messing around with darkness

you're the one who's losing

you've been running around for so long

you've been hurting yourself too much

you keep messing around with darkness

you're the one who's losing

you have power and money