reoccurring grey

wake me up from this nightmare

because in this dream i can't trust myself

i thought i'd seen an end to these attacks

thought the world had destroyed every last nerve. an imbalance so cruel it never lets up. i've seen this show a thousand times

but each time it just gets more fucked. throw logic out the door

bring disillusion and fear

distort everything in sight so that nothing is clear. a pending apocalypse has to be near

an end to everything i've loved

yet somehow i've grown numb

i've conditioned my mind to accept the worst

yet it feels too familiar

like somehow i'll return

to this same lonely state

to this reoccurring grey. to this infinite hell that i fear follows me.