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i hate being lonely

yet i'm always separating myself

they don't wanna get to know me

or at least that's just what i tell myself

walk around like they all owe me

but really i'm just feeling bad for myself

'til i feel like i'm imploding

let it out with a text

what the hell

was i thinking?

why'd i have to go and say those things?

baby

what the hell was i thinking?

why'd i say i love you back

why'd i say i love you back?

tricking myself so that i never notice

i'm losing my focus

i know that i'm hopeless

i'm just waiting for a miracle

something that'll tell me where i need to go

where would they want me?

in the past they all would want

but never want me again

oh well

so long

i don't want 'em

don't want 'em

if you don't want me then i don't want ya

when i wanna pretend

i'll just tell you that i'm fine

while i'm crying

but you'll know

that i'm out of my mind

hold my hand

hold my hand

i need help right now

i could cry right now

but

i'd die right now in your arms