rude awakenings

the bed was still warm where i slept

from these hours i wish to forget

with the night still fresh on my breath

i awoke to the grim face of death

i thought it was all just a nightmare

i guess it was true

as i crawled across the floor for the door

from one room i don't know to the next

there was nothing familiar around

and it just ain't my style to leave the seat down

i pulled on my clothes still half in a dream

as i struggled with my conscience & a multidirectional stream

i buried my loneliness with her for the night

then i left with new symptoms no antidepressant could cure

she took me for all i was worth

may i remind you that ain't much at all

a meaningless gesture in the meanest of times

as it turns out you weren't worth the call

i though it was all just a nightmare

i guess it was true

but now i'm left with a daily reminder of you

with equal surprise she opened her eyes

sat up & shouted for christ sakes who the hell are you!"