st. anthony

i never thought that things would end up like this

but

now i know i was wrong

it's been this way for so long

hands shaking

heart racing

it's been a lonely road

can i live this way

always feeling the shadow of your ghost?

will you walk back through the door

just like before?

i've become so used to this weight bringing me down

i pray it takes hold and it drags me through the ground

i can feel your eyes burning holes right through me

i'm not the man that i used to be

this bastard inside has taken over me

i'm not the man that i used to be

this bastard inside has taken over me

these days feel just like weeks

the light it sinks

while the darkness peaks

i can't seem to shake this feeling

so

i find myself asking. have you had enough time to hate me?"