still searching

i can't believe it's been a year

since i kissed my fears

on their salty lips

and said to them i love you all

i carried the weight of the world on my shoulders

for 20 years and look at me now

i've got something to say

about the last 12 months i've lived

i'm not the same kid i was when i was younger

i just thought you should know

i take a pill every day

to help me deal with life

and oh my god

i've lost control

i stare at accidents in a sick attempt

to feel at all

i carried the weight of the world on my shoulders

for 20 years and look at me now

i've got something to say

about the family that i've lost

i hope my mother and my father think

that they raised a healthy boy

who needs the help of a shrink

to even leave the house?

and oh my god

i've lost control

i stare at accidents in a sick attempt

to feel at all

i'm not the same kid i was when i was younger

i just thought you

i just thought you should know

i'm not the same kid i was when i was younger

i just thought you

i just thought you should know

i carried the weight of the world on my shoulders

for 20 years and look at me now

and now

and now

i'm finding a way to forget everything that i know

i can't believe it's been a year

since i kissed my fears

on their salty lips

and said to them i love you all

don't ask

just follow

repeat and swallow

don't ask

just swallow them down your throat

don't ask

just swallow

repeat and follow

don't ask

just swallow them down your throat

my best friend is a man

with a lab coat and a grin

i hold my shaking hand and he gives me medicine

it almost makes me feel at home

but they slowly steal my soul

i tell him i still feel alone

don't worry someday i promise you will feel whole"