thoughts of suicide

hey man you alright?

no

i seen how your ol girl was coming down on you

yeah

what happened? your pops found out you lost that job and shit

mmm-hmmm

well don't worry homey

man parent be like that sometimes

it's like they mad at you because they get old. just don't go all crazy on me

talking about you going to kill yourself again

alright

yes

in my mind i want to do it but when i pursue it i can't seem to go through it

so i'm going to write a song just so you can feel everything i feel when i'm in the mood to kill myself

i can't control it

these thoughts of suicide

i'm always dealing with

and i know i'm not alone when it comes to this

cause everyday it's like the whole world pissed

so fuck your attitude and keep your bad mood cause i got one too

and i don't give a shit who you rolling with bring your whole damn crew

we'll call it suicide when you messin with a killa someone's bound to die

and it won't be me cause only one's claimin my life is g-o-d

you ever thought of suicide

you ever thought of suicide

you ever thought of suicide

glad you didn't do it

if you did you wouldn't be here now

are you easily influenced

does your parents always say that your friends are the reason that you ruint

do you have hate for your boss

to where you wanna catch him alone and pop one off

or is it mental health

where the only problem that you have is with yourself

can someone please explain why it feels so good to cause so much pain

with all these thoughts we have

yep it's easy to say to just relax

but when you that fed up

only thing in your mind is how deep to cut

because you hate your life and you really don't care

and things would be better if you just weren't here

so now you ready to go end it all

instead of thinking of the ones you won't see tomorrow

it's nothing nice

got the thoughts steadily running through my head

i close my eyes and try to picture if i'm better off dead

it sucks to me

the one and only as i sit here by my lonely

separated from the world cause the world is so phony

hear my cries

tell me why when you do it tell them lies

you wear a disguise i can see it in your motherfuckin eyes

it's suicide

last ride if you wanna get inside

shotgun it's your boy and i'm ready to die

do people that commit suicide go to heaven?

i'm sure everyone has their own theories

but i'm a firm believer that if you take you own life

your soul is trapped