i am my own hell

i am my own hell

and i have made my home

in a place where no one ever goes

i'll always be alone

i'm learning all kinds of tricks

how to drain the blood out of my face

and spend a summer in bed

so everyone will think i'm dead

when i come back to you

it'll be on my hands and knees

i'd be lying if i said

i didn't dream sometimes

about what it would be like

if i didn't have this life

my legs start to shake

when it's my time to leave