that's just the way that i feel

well

i don't like talkin' to myself

but someone's gotta say it

hell

i mean

things have not been going well

this time i think i finally fucked myself

you see

the life i live is sickening

i spent a decade playing chicken with oblivion

day to day

i'm neck and neck with giving in

i'm the same old wreck i've always been

and when i see her in the park

it barely merits a remark

how we stand the standard distance

distant strangers stand apart

course i've been humbled by the void

much of my faith has been destroyed

i've been forced to watch my foes enjoy

ceaseless feasts of schadenfreude

and as the pace of life keeps quickening

beneath the bitching and the bickering

when i try to drown my thoughts in gin

i find my worst ideas know how to swim

well

a setback can be a setup

for a comeback if you don't let up

but this kind of hurtin' won't heal

and the end of all wanting

is all i've been wanting

and that's just the way that i feel

i met failure in australia

i fell ill in illinois

i nearly lost my genitalia

to an anthill in des moines

i was so far gone in fargo

south dakota got annoyed

that's the shit i'm talkin' 'bout

when i talk to you about

ceaseless feasts of schadenfreude

and a setback can be a setup

for a comeback if you don't let up

but this kind of hurtin' won't heal

and the end of all wanting

is all i've been wanting

the end of all wanting

is all i've been wanting

the end of all wanting

is all i've been wanting

and that's just the way that i feel