apparition

apparition is the name of a friend

that goes away in the end

you are my cancer and

you kept me going and

all this time all i could do

was feel you and touch you

and just feel the blackness of your skin

but it became the blackness of your heart

and

inside you would laugh

and i just. have to laugh

ha

ha ha ha

ha

ha ha ha ha

you're. my cancer

and all this time when i thought that you were

the same

that you were just stubborn

they hadn't changed

and you had changed

back into what you used to be

into what you said you'd never be again

and here you go again

and spinning round and round

ha

ha ha ha

ha

ha ha ha ha

ha!