the appointment interlude

when i got the news i kinda already knew

because of the morning sickness and the pain on my left side has shifted

i tried to ignore all the signs of fertility

only focus on how was gonna face this humility

something told me to pray but instead i called the clinic

i had to contact a medic so many thoughts in my head were spinning

with no respect for the life in me

i scheduled to have it killed

then i thought to myself

damn i should've used that 72 hours pill

knowing that this is labeled wrong i still felt i was doing what i have to

justifying my decision making by

ignoring that this is a real life i'm taking

i told myself it's the first trimester there's no form yet it's not that bad"