the sleeping and the dead

as i witness

you fall behind

i continue and start to rise

now you're after a droning daze

to fall back into sulk in your shame

in connection we find a game so obvious

planned from the start

can't explain why it distracts us

i'm delirious and the air is thinning

the room is spinning and i am sitting

every breath i'm consuming my own doubt

it still keeps us alive

see there's an evil that's outraged

still it keeps us alive

resistance plays at our heart strings

when the weight comes down

you reject it

just accept it

thinking you need out

you create it

you can escape it

this urgency you feel each second will never leave

don't ever think it's the end

alive to keep us reckless

with toxins in ours veins

while basic operators follow directions and play the game

what you say in your head is not what you tell the world

destroying all my fears

just as the picture is about to come clear

dissemble

falling to the ground

shattered on the floor

picking up the pieces as i.