the timid

could someone please explain

the lifeless and mundane

world i've built around me

some by design

most by default

each piece has its place

and each place with a face

but they're all so very ordinary

and each day that passes

she tightens her leash

and they sharpen their teeth

while i sit on my hands

and do all that i can

to hold back their advances

and then one day it will be

when the world says to me

thanks for your trouble

now gather your rubble

your handfuls of memories

of love and of joy

and your truckloads of misery

your self hating toys

and get out of the way

for the next poor fool to see

all the joy this life will fail to show him

then miraculously he broke free

of the grinding routine

he sailed to tahiti and found his true love

and he trampled my ashes

with no need for sunglasses

he turned to the bright shining sun

i'm free

no chain no shackles no pain

i'm free

no hate and no fear

no misery here

i didn't want to go out anyway

i'd rather stay home any day

time moves now and then and back again

you are the dream that i will never realize

and then he screamed at me

if only you had bled a little more

you too could be breathing just like me

everyone wants to be someone

why not you?

and then he waved at me as i withdrew

i can honestly say

this world is gonna miss you

as i realize the world outside

has quietly passed me by

i think to myself

that should have been mine