they'll clap when you're gone

i can feel the walls closing in

and i don't want to talk anymore

wish i could quietly slip away

and leave you here with no void

the only reason i stay is to care for you

everything else in me has atrophied

and i am cold and painless now

i want to live but i feel nothing

when can i die

when can i go

when will i be free

when will i know

when can i run - my legs are bound

when can i go

when can i go

was born a blackened seed in the wild

and i never was a child

i was pulled right out of the sea

and the salt - it never left my body

someone opened me up while i was sleeping

and filled my body right up with sand

i carry a heaviness like a mountain

it forces me to remain

alive and ugly

alive and ugly

alive and ugly

alive and ugly

when can i die

when can i go

when will i be free

when will i know

when can i run

my legs are bound

can i leave here

knowing you'll be strong without me

they'll clap when you die

they'll love you when you're dead

and they'll understand

and you'll be forgiven then