think i'm sick

i'm sick i think i'm sick

sometimes i think i get like this

i bite my tongue

i clench my fists

resist at first and then reverse

the night knows me by name

its shadow trained to dull the pain

all the black begins to blur

resist at first and then immerse

it tires me

it makes me sad

to think of all the nights i've had

eyes shut tightly

i shut down

won't be that much longer now

in the quiet

in the dark

all my ideals fall apart

when they come for me again

resist with everything i am

it tires me

it makes me sad

to think of all the nights i've had

eyes shut tightly

i shut down

won't be that much longer now

i'm sick

i think i'm sick

sometimes i think i get like this

i bite my tongue

i clench my fists

resist at first and then reverse

life's a war

you pick your fight

i think mine picks me first most nights

if i should wake before i die

then promise me you'll never get this sick inside

can't undo a word i said

years of struggle still ahead

all the trouble in my head

i wish i were good instead

i'm sick

i think i'm sick

sometimes i think i get like this

i bite my tongue

i clench my fists

resist at first and then reverse

my adversary knows me well

she's out for blood

too soon to tell

if i'll outsmart these lies of hell

and think my sick self back to health