By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?

Do I follow my instincts blindly?

Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?

And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?

Do I sit here and try to stand it

Or do I try to catch them red-handed?

Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?

Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?

Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin

I make the right moves

but I'm lost within

I put on my daily facade

but then

I just end up getting hurt again by myself

(Myself)

I ask why (But in my mind

I find)

I can't rely on myself (Myself)

I ask why (But in my mind

I find)

I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on (To what I want when I'm stretched so thin)

It's all too much to take in

I can't hold on (To anything

watching everything spin)

With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I turn my back

I'm defenseless

And to go blind leaves you senseless

If I hide my pride and let it all go on

Then they'll take from me 'til everything is gone

And if I let them go

I'll be outdone

But if I try to catch them

I'll be outrun

If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer

Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer by myself

(Myself)

I ask why (But in my mind

I find)

I can't rely on myself (Myself)

I ask why (But in my mind

I find)

I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on (To what I want when I'm stretched so thin)

It's all too much to take in

I can't hold on (To anything

watching everything spin)

With thoughts of failure sinking in

How do you think I've lost so much?

I'm so afraid

I'm out of touch

How do you expect I will know what to do

When all I know is what you tell me to?

Don't you (Know?)

I can't tell you how to make it (Go)

No matter what I do

how hard I (Try)

I can't seem to convince myself (Why)

I'm stuck on the outside

Don't you (Know?)

I can't tell you how to make it (Go)

No matter what I do

how hard I (Try)

I can't seem to convince myself (Why)

I'm stuck on the outside

I can't hold on (To what I want when I'm stretched so thin)

It's all too much to take in

I can't hold on (To anything

watching everything spin)

With thoughts of failure sinking in

I can't hold on (To what I want when I'm stretched so thin)

It's all too much to take in

I can't hold on (To anything

watching everything spin)

With thoughts of failure sinking…