my thoughts were unclouded and sage
there was no black staining the walls of my memories
now there's a haze pushing me sideways
and leaving me nothing to gain
locking me cold in disparity
i feel i'm lost in a dream
long for the day i can be myself
nothing to keep me with the time
i feel i'm lost in a dream
yearning again only to be myself
and always the first thing to fade
nothing we can never evade
bringing on decay and despair
something we can never repair
freedom for me is all i'm really wanting
give me power to break out
i can't hold on for any longer
my time has come to end it all
it's nothing we'll ever explain
i feel i'm lost in a dream
long for the day i can be myself
when will i be unleashed?
it's not the way it should be
yearning again only to be myself