vacant

i can't think i feel so stressed

i can't feel love it's so hopeless

and i just wanna be successful or i wanna be happy

i been working hard trynna make it all happen

i believe in myself even when nobody else do

lawd

and i just wanna be successful or i wanna be happy

i been working hard trynna make it all happen

i believe in myself even when nobody else do

you down to the ground nigga don't let that affect you

i said this shit before but i'ma do it my way

i swear to god i'm focused you know where to find me

time is of the essence

i promise not to waste it

i'll take happiness or wealth

whichever one don't leave me

vacant

vacant

ah

sit alone with my thoughts

let me reflect

and rummage through my mental checklist of regret

it's okay

i'm just gon wallow with my sorrows i guess

if you see me crying in public

please walk on by

these are the tears of a clown i'm spillin'

this pain is the realest feeling

i feel for the life of me

i

just can't attain what i want

these wishful thinking prayers

i hope jehovah hears

but honestly

they're falling on deaf ears

i'm revered as a rapid writer

releasing lines

i'm igniting the fire inside your soul

that's controlled by your insecurities

can tell the personality trace

just to fit in with the fake

so that you blend in with the rest of the vagues

it's a shame

there's beauty inside of yourself

but look you gotta find it

within our darkest moments

we control our mental climates

never fold under pressure

that's what makes diamonds

and even if you failed a million times

continue trying

and i just wanna be successful or i wanna be happy

i been working hard trynna make it all happen

i believe in myself even when nobody else do

you down to the ground nigga don't let that affect you

i said this shit before but i'ma do it my way

i swear to god i'm focused you know where to find me

time is of the essence

i promise not to waste it

i'll take happiness or wealth

whichever one don't leave me

vacant

vacant

ah

people miss the negate the fact that i am a loner

my simple mind has been stressing over these things i conjure

and i'll admit that i'm selfish

ignoring other's problems

i never see the bigger picture

too reactionary

i take advantage of the fact my mother's there for me

i rarely say i love her

if i do

i say it sparingly

embarrassed by my lack of compassion i wanted normalcy

i know i need to go and see a doctor for conformity

of mind

body

spirit and soul

my god tell me why i'm cold

murder opponents i will

no empathy that i feel

i found myself i was lost

but for my sake i just

hope that it isn't too late

flashbacks of cold razor blades

how could i say that on record i still remember

my homie telling me that i was tripping

said you need to be aware of what you speaking