wake up alone (original)

it's okay in the day

i'm staying busy

tied up enough so i don't have to wonder where is he

got so sick of crying

so just lately

when i catch myself i do a 180

i stay up

clean the house

at least i'm not drinking

run around just so i don't have to think about thinking

that silent sense of content that everyone gets

just disappears when the sun sets

he gets fierce in my dreams seizing my guts

he floods me with dread

soaked to his soul he swims in my eyes by the bed

pour myself over him

moon spilling in

and i wake up alone

as far as my heart

i'd rather be restless

second i stop the sleep catches up and i'm breathless

this ache in my chest

'cause my day is done now

the dark covers me and i cannot run now

my blood running cold

i stand before him

it's all i can do to assure him

when he comes to me

i drip for him tonight

drowning in me

we bathe under blue light

and i wake up alone

and i wake up alone

and i wake up alone