watching the skies

time has come to ask myself

what future lies ahead

the weakness of my soul

awakes the fury that was dead

and what is it that brings out the shame

in my dreams i travel

lost confused

still searching

watching the skies

all my sleep is wasted

awake or not

still waiting

watching the skies

my home is no longer

a place where safety can be found

constantly looking over my shoulder

forced into the darkest corner of the mind

i find myself not trusting anyone

and distrust leaves you lonely

the hiding from the fear

brings me closer to despair

feelings of doubt joins me

i fight to keep myself above the surface

i try but the waves i swim are just growing stronger

the light's getting distant and i am drifting further

i'm being swallowed by the night

in my dreams i travel

lost confused

still searching

watching the skies

all my sleep is wasted

awake or not

still waiting

watching the skies

please be the eyes

that guides me through

please be the hands to lead me

in search for the shocking truth

please be my courage

my will to win

please understand and listen

please be my friend