wax apologetic

i can't take back a single thing that i have ever done

so who is it for

when i tell you time and time again

how sorry that i really am?

i mean it

but is that ever worth a damn?

i need it

to selfishly relieve my shame

it's no use repeating

such words are self-defeating

it was never about you anyway

trying to find comfort

for lack of a better word

you always said

it's better to beg for forgiveness

than ask for permission

but that's meaningless

if i can't get past all the guilt

and the shame

i can't accept the helplessness of poor luck

because i don't believe in giving up

there's always more i could have done

in rejecting the concept of fate

i welcome the burden of blame

but it's not the same

it's no use repeating

such words are self-defeating

it was never about you anyway

trying to find comfort

for lack of a better word

it's no use repeating

such words are self-defeating

it was never about you anyway

i'm just coping in my own way

never know what else to say

every single day

you hear that word out of my mouth

and it sickens me to say

but i can't help but let it out

it's a weakness

it's an impulse

and i know i've worn it out

i wish i could be stronger person

or at least a better judge

of what is out of my control

so at least then i know

it's not my fault

i'll learn to forgive myself

some things are just out of our hands

it's no use repeating

such words are self-defeating

it was never about you anyway

i'm just coping in my own way

there is nothing more that i can say

i'm sorry

for what it's worth