where i am

we're told that we're all special at a very young age

but maybe we're not

i know i believed every television commercial until my work ethic rots

internet prepared for a world full of fantasy where fear of adversity eliminated diversity

and i need an audience just to have an original thought

and i tried to get right from god so many times it doesn't feel right anymore

so put the salt of the world in these wounds and blind me with the light and let me see this pain in a systematic brain

so i still have some fight in me

the lover in my heart says it's okay to break

be vigilant cause vigilance is something i can take

the fight that's in my heart says love can't be made

you said loving me is such a pensive way to let yourself break

she said love wasn't always fun

so it was hard to commit

darling

just sleep on your stomach so you don't choke on your vomit

getting it in your lungs

it's the only way you could still say we're in love

you said you would never lose a man who had to use a paycheck to make you break

he said we'll use the next one to get rid of your scars

but you said you wanted to keep them

cause you're beautiful that way and if it's right with god

it's right with me

i'll see we're shaming

darling

the lover in my heart says it's okay to break

be vigilant cause vigilance is something i can take

the fight that's in my heart says love can't be made

you said loving me is such a pensive way to let yourself break

and god

i love you

and i hope to make sure you remember my name

so take these memories and make me feel sane

i pushed everyone i love away and it hurts to say

but i deserved to break

just sleep on your stomach so you don't choke on vomit

getting it into your lungs

it's the only way you could still say we're in love

say we're in love

say it even if you're being dishonest

i was dishonest when i said

when i said you were better than what i lost