red like roses, pt. ii

i couldn't take it

couldn't stand another minute;

couldn't bear another day without you in it

all of the joy that i had known for all my life

was stripped away from me the minute that you died

to have you in my life was all i ever wanted

but now without you

i'm a soul forever haunted

can't help but feel that i had taken you for granted;

no way in hell that i can ever comprehend this

i wasn't dreaming when they told me you were gone

i was wide awake and feeling that they had to be wrong

how could you leave me when you swore that you would stay?

now i'm trapped inside a nightmare every single f'ing day

it's like a movie

but there's not a happy ending;

every scene fades black

and there's no pretending

this little fairy tale doesn't seem to end well

there's no knight in shining armor who will wake me from the spell

i know you didn't plan this;

you tried to do what's right

but in the middle of this madness

i'm the one you left to win this fight

red like roses

fills my head with dreams and finds me

always closer

to the emptiness and sadness

that has come to take the place of you

i know you're broken down by anger and by sadness;

you feel i left you in a world that's full of madness

wish i could talk to you

if only for a minute;

make you understand the reasons why i did it

i wanna tell you that you're all that ever mattered;

want you to know that

for eternity

i'm shattered

i tried so hard just to protect you

but i failed to

and in a prison of abandonment i've jailed you

i never planned that i would leave you there alone

i was sure that i would see you when i made it back home

and all the times i swore that it would be okay;

now i'm nothing but a liar

and you're thrown into the fray

this bedtime story ends with misery ever after

the pages are torn

and there's no final chapter

i didn't have a choice

i did what i had to do;

i made a sacrifice

but forced a bigger sacrifice on you

i know you've lived a nightmare;

i caused you so much pain

but baby

please don't do what i did;

i don't want you to waste your life in vain

red like roses

fills my head with dreams and finds me

always closer

to the emptiness and sadness

that has come to take the place of you

you're not the only one who needed me; i thought you understood

you were the one i needed

and you left me as i always feared you would

would i change it if i could?

it doesn't matter how

the petals scatter now

every nightmare just discloses

it's your blood that's red like roses

and no matter what i do

nothing ever takes the place of you

red like roses

fills my head with dreams and finds me

always closer

to the emptiness and sadness

that has come to take the place of you