winter of cicada

i made some plans and wrote them down

for both of us

they're in a book beneath my bed

with a photo on the front

the pages read of things we'd see

the ones you wanted most

i'd take you to the places that

i always said we'd go

and how can i be sure it gets better

i've written every word

every letter

i just want to be wherever you are

sure i can be whatever you want

i know it's harder to give than to get

you get what you give and that's it

i just want to be

i just want to be

a kid i was a teenager

a foolish one

the polo shirt i'd always wear

you begged me to rip up

you pierced my nose

i shaved your head

you came to all my shows

and everyone one would always say

don't ever let her go

and how can i be sure it gets better

i've written every word

every letter

i just want to be wherever you are

sure i can be whatever you want

i know it's harder to give than to get

you get what you give and that's it

you just need me but i wasn't there

i know i never treated you fair

and how much longer till i regret

taking the bet that you'd quit

i just want to be

so rip me apart and put me right back how you want

you just needed me

you just needed me

so how can i maintain

you occupy my brain

but still i wait for you

it's the best that i can

so dress me head to toe

prepare me for the cold

the longest winter yet

forever in regret

forever in regret