wish i could drink
Singer:hayes, walker
holding onto my hotel bed so tight
'cause i know if i let go i'ma follow the sound
of that piano outta my room and down to the lounge
where i'ma mess it all up
it's been four years since i've reeked of alcohol
i've been to the gym three times today
keep calling my wife with nothing to say
all of my trash cans are filled with coffee cups
i'm staring at that water bottle
wonderin' if folks would notice
if i put a little vodka in it
maybe rehab ain't just a guest house
maybe i don't ever really check out
just appreciate the freedom
from my demons when they hush
when i just wish i could drink
wish i could have a beer with my sons
when they turn twenty one
i'ma be holding up a water
tryna smile back the time-flies tears with 'em
praying to anyone who will listen upstairs
they learn from my mistakes and not theirs
maybe it's in their blood
maybe they won't start 'cause they watched me quitting
i wish i could forgive me
i'm staring at that water bottle
wonderin' if folks would notice
if i put a little vodka in it
maybe rehab ain't just a guest house
maybe i don't ever really check out
just appreciate the freedom
from my demons when they hush
when i just wish i could drink
there's this nightmare i keep having
it's the worst joke i can imagine
someone slips a little jack in my coke behind my back
when i take a sip and taste it
i cannot believe i just wasted
all that struggle fighting from it
and i feel sick at my stomach
'cause the thought of starting all over
makes me want to get the opposite of sober so bad
i could kill whoever did it
and i realize i was just dreaming
and i thank god there's not a drop of jack on it
maybe there is such thing as a good bad dream
'cause at that moment i don't wish i could drink