wish i may

i'm losing my love of adventure

i'm losing all respect

for me and myself tonight

i wonder what happens if i get to

the end of this tunnel

and there isn't a light

ive worn down the treads

on all of my tires

i've worn through the elbows

and the knees of my clothing

and i'm stumbling down

the gravel driveway of desire

trying not to wake up

my sleepy self-loathing

do you ever have that dream

when you open your mouth

and you try to scream

but you can't make a sound

that's everyday starting now

that's everyday starting now

dont tell me it's gonna be alright

you can't sell me on your optimism tonight

it's a stiff competition

to see who can stay up later

the stars or the street lights

and all they really want

is to be alone with the darkness

no more wish i may

no more wish i might

it takes a stiff upper lip

just to hold up my face

i gotta suck it up and savor

the taste of my own behavior

i am spinning with longing

faster then a roulette wheel

this is not who i meant to be

this is not how i meant to feel

i don't think i am strong enough

to do this much longer

god

i wish i was stronger

this song could never be long enough

to express every longing

god

i wish it was longer.