wishin'

i wish that i could write

i wish i didn't drink

have to do drugs just to concentrate and think

i wish that i could sleep

never got a wink

gotta work a double n' when i finish i'mma stink

and my feet keep throbbin

i wish that i could rest

wish i woulda finished school i never shoulda quit

wish i didn't blame it on my parents

just the appearance of my father is traumatizing wish you never woulda left

that excuse is getting old

so is doing drugs

reefer got me paranoid

so is doing bumps

but i still got a dollar bill to my noise snorting clear of a mirror

man i wish i had a gun

but once again i bluff cause i really wanna live

i just wanna hug and care for my girl cause she left

and my bed feels empty when i'm in it

and i'm in it cause i don't wanna wonder where she is

more than a couple of my friends done drifted

far from each other homie i just wish that

we could travel back in time and just re-live it;

for a minute when it would become so distant

its been sunny outside and i'm high and wishin it'd rain

when i'm visitn memory lane and i'm wishin this whiskey will whisk me away in the daylight

wishin while i'm walkin on this lonley road

and i'm wishin you were by my side

miss you when i'm gone

gotta hit the road

i be gettin throwed every city is a blur

i get it on the stage

takin pictures with these girls afterwards

but i really just be wishin it was her

and i wish she'd believe me

wish i didn't read these

negative comments that everybody wanna leave me

underneath the songs that i put up on the internet

i'm finna let bother me

a part of me just wishes they'd leave me alone

my journey wasn't easy to get here

i wish they could see how far i came

i wish i had a street team

cheese for some t-shirts and cd's

i barley got a dollar to my name

people thinkin that i'm on

my inbox fillin up with feature and i wish i could respond

my phone keep ringin

friends sayin that i'm changin

i finally get a minute to myself all alone i be drunk

my alarm goin off in the mornin

i be snortin all night

i wish i could hit snooze

got a song i'm about to leak

wish that i was enthused

but apparently i gotta diss dudes to get views

sick of sittin on the back burner with a lit fuse

they sayin it ain't my turn yet

i'm sick of these music industry motherfuckers bullshitin

when the truth is that there ain't no rapper fuckin with me

feelin like i'm gettin used

thats another excuse

i wish that i was them

i wish i had a tour bus

the car that i be in

ain't got no air condition and i'm wishin there was wind

i can't afford a shirt i gotta wear this one again

man i wish someone would send a box of some free shit

i'm wishin i had a bigger buzz

i've been tryin so hard to make it happen with the rap

but for now i make it happen with the drugs

now what

wishin while i'm walkin on this lonely road

and i'm wishin you were by my side

wishin