x-mas in hell

december 25th

1986 - van nuys. merry christmas. well that's what people say at christmas

right?

except for normally they have somebody to say it to. they have friends and family

and they haven't been crouched naked under a christmas tree

with a needle in their arm like an insane person in a mansion in van nuys. they're not out of their minds

they're not writing in a diary

and they're definitely not watching their holiday spirit coagulate in a spoon. i didn't speak to a single person today. i thought

why should i ruin their fucking christmas?"