yonder is closer to the heart

pocket contents: rizla pack

spare change

receipts in wads

stacked in camps across my desk

each day another pile

time was measured in balls of lent

laundry claim tags and number of cents

it takes to drown your brain into a just-dowsed former fire

coffee breaks and lamb's tail shakes aren't arbitrary marks

paycheck stubs

good sex and drugs can fade away distractions of the

mantras of keep going" that are lodged into my thoughts